Let's just take it slow...

It feels great to be back in the blogging scene!!!! NO, I didn't purposefully stop updating, but I have been on a constant roller coaster lately that hasn't allowed me to do so.
There has been SO much going on in the past months since my last post! Oh where do I start.....

In summary this is what has happened:

School....and skipping school
Roadtrip to Las Vegas!
Meeting my best friend's fiance (I totally approve)
Unemployment.....then employment....then unemployment....and finally...... employment
Romance
Ran a Triathlon!
Lots and lots of volleyball
New church callings
Heartbreak
Messy apartment/room
Reading a few books (which aren't even close to being finished and are still on my nightstand)
Lots of wonderful new friends
Roadtrip to Rexburg!
Missionaries came home
Marriage!
Missionaries leaving
Spring

If anyone wants specifics on a certain topic....let me know and i'll see what I can make out of it!

So, I am suppose to graduate in about 5-6 months from Cosmetology school. How crazy is that?! I definitely feel that I am becoming more confident and comfortable with this career. I still have no idea what I want to do once I graduate though. There are so many stinkin' options for me right now! I don't want to say those options yet....i still have a lot of pondering and such about them. But I will definitely fill you all in once the time comes!!



In the meantime, please watch and enjoy this absolutely romantic video. I hope my future husband loves me as much as this man loves his fiance. :)


LUCK - NYC Wedding Proposal from Aria Melody DJ on Vimeo.

Guys Are Frightening

yep...I said it

Guys scare me.

Games that aren't so fun, miscommunication, unreadable signs, weird and sometimes gross mannerisms, awkward situations, non-emotional text messages, cute yet creepy compliments, looks up and down, strange habits, and did I mention a little bit of sketchy?

Haha, I love them. Yet I'm TERRIFIED of them!

...you never know what you're gonna get.

Look Not Behind Thee

Ohhhhh 2011.

How excited I am for you to arrive!!

It's time again....for those New Years Goals!

I've put a bit of thought into these; I really stepped back and looked at what I feel I need to improve on and progress in. I have motivation in my life now. I want what's best for me, and yes, this is a time to be selfish.

1 Lose 15-20 lbs (and keep it off)

2 Read the Book Of Mormon twice

(find more about this amazing book here)

3 Attend the temple every week

4 Volunteer/Serve (I'm thinking at the MTC)

5 Read a novel a month (might be difficult, but I will at least read one every so often)

6 Journal every week

7 Pray morning & night

8 Be selfless, kind, and happy

Some of these are more personal than others, nevertheless, they are goals! And I intend to stick it to these goals and get them done! I only have 365 days, right?

I hope all of you have a safe and memorable New Years!

Let's not look back, but look forward to what wonderful things are to come!!!

Read At Your Own Risk

Today I hit a wall...

I have NO idea what I want to do for a future career or even with my life right now!

I always come up with these ideas of things that I should do or could do. That's not bad right? Well I don't think it's necessarily a good thing when I wast time and money doing it correct?

I know this is what life is all about; experiencing new things and ideas and then finding where your "nook" is. It has been almost 3 years since I have been our of high school and unfortunately....

...I haven't found my "nook".

I am getting quite impatient.

I just want a plan, something, ANYTHING.

I'm lost.

I thought I knew what I wanted to do for a major while I was at BYU-Idaho. That didn't happen so I though I was suppose to pursue a career in cosmetology....turns out I know for a fact that I don't want to be doing this my entire life. I know I want to do something medical, but the list of jobs in that field is endless. So...what now?

My parents are sick and tired of me always changing my mind. They have been so patient with me and have given me so much throughout this time of my life. But 3 years is a long time to help me "get started".

I feel irresponsible.

I love my parents so much and am so grateful for them. But, I feel that I should be helping them now. I should be providing for myself (and don't get me wrong, I'm trying). I seem to always be falling short, or I'm always missing something.

What is missing?

I don't know, no one know except for Heavenly Father.

I know I'm being tested and this is to help me learn something. I thought I knew what, but now I'm not so sure. What is the point of doing what I'm doing right now if I'm not happy?

I thought I was happy...now I'm just stressed.

I guess I have some things to sort out don't I?

(Sorry for the pessimistic rant, ya'll are peaches to hear me out :)

On another note...This man is always a great pick me up

I did it, and I feel awesome

You know those moments when you just want to be super selfish? Yes, I'm sure we all do.

I feel that way all the time...

Well, today was different. Today I woke up like usual, but I felt different. Different routine?...Nope. Different hairstyle?...Definitely not. What was different today was something I can describe....

...something I can't put into words.

Today, I felt selfless.

Have you ever tried it? I'm sure you have.

It's quite nice actually. So, why not do it always?

Christ did it. He did it for all of us. He did the most selfless act anyone could have ever done.

So....stay longer at work for that person who has a doctors appointment, even if it's on your day to get off early.

....give that classmate who is walking alone on the side of the road in the freezing cold air with all of his bags a ride home.

....invite that random person that you aren't great friends with to an ugly sweater party. (it might be just what they need)

....be kind. How hard can it be, really?

These are just a few examples. But I know and whole-heartedly believe that this is one of the best ways to be a better person.

This is who I want to be. :)

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Yesterday I woke up to a man shoveling snow. I looked outside my window and saw the white, powdery goodness that Utah has to offer this time of year.

It was perfect.

We got about 5 inches of snow over night and it's just what I needed to see! Christmas is coming and that means I will be able to finally go home.

22 days left....I can do it.

Kristen and I were thrilled with the snow and decided we were going to play in it as much as possible. So, we did. Unlike Iowa, it's not a bad temperature when it snows here. This allows us to stay out in it for more than an hour. It's quite the difference!

I'm in such a Christmas spirit lately that I had to break out the Christmas candles, music, and I even watched "Elf". It was so awesome.

Just a quick side note: I will be doing something today that will most likely and hopefully allow me to relieve some stress as well as kick start me into a better and less-worrisome lifestyle.

Wish me luck. :)

Be Satisfied With Me

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

To have a deep soul relationship with another,

To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied,

Fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone,

With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me.

With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with me alone.

Discovering that only in me is your satisfaction to be found,

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship,

That I have planned for you.

You will never be united to another

Until you are united with me.

Exclusive of anyone or anything else. Exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow me to give you

The most thrilling plan existing . . . one you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best.

Please allow me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.

Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.

Just wait, that’s all.

Don’t be anxious, don’t worry

Don’t look around at things others have gotten

Or that I have given them

Don’t look around at the things you think you want,

Just keep looking off and away up to me,

Or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love

Far more wonderful than you could dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,

I am working even at this moment

To have both of you ready at the same time.

Until you are both satisfied exclusively with me

And the life I’ve prepared for you,

You won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me.

And this is perfect love.

And, dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me.

And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union

Of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly.

For I am God. Believe it and be satisfied.

Thanks to my dear friend Kishara for sharing this with me. I love you girl. :)