Look Not Behind Thee

Ohhhhh 2011.

How excited I am for you to arrive!!

It's time again....for those New Years Goals!

I've put a bit of thought into these; I really stepped back and looked at what I feel I need to improve on and progress in. I have motivation in my life now. I want what's best for me, and yes, this is a time to be selfish.

1 Lose 15-20 lbs (and keep it off)

2 Read the Book Of Mormon twice

(find more about this amazing book here)

3 Attend the temple every week

4 Volunteer/Serve (I'm thinking at the MTC)

5 Read a novel a month (might be difficult, but I will at least read one every so often)

6 Journal every week

7 Pray morning & night

8 Be selfless, kind, and happy

Some of these are more personal than others, nevertheless, they are goals! And I intend to stick it to these goals and get them done! I only have 365 days, right?

I hope all of you have a safe and memorable New Years!

Let's not look back, but look forward to what wonderful things are to come!!!

Read At Your Own Risk

Today I hit a wall...

I have NO idea what I want to do for a future career or even with my life right now!

I always come up with these ideas of things that I should do or could do. That's not bad right? Well I don't think it's necessarily a good thing when I wast time and money doing it correct?

I know this is what life is all about; experiencing new things and ideas and then finding where your "nook" is. It has been almost 3 years since I have been our of high school and unfortunately....

...I haven't found my "nook".

I am getting quite impatient.

I just want a plan, something, ANYTHING.

I'm lost.

I thought I knew what I wanted to do for a major while I was at BYU-Idaho. That didn't happen so I though I was suppose to pursue a career in cosmetology....turns out I know for a fact that I don't want to be doing this my entire life. I know I want to do something medical, but the list of jobs in that field is endless. So...what now?

My parents are sick and tired of me always changing my mind. They have been so patient with me and have given me so much throughout this time of my life. But 3 years is a long time to help me "get started".

I feel irresponsible.

I love my parents so much and am so grateful for them. But, I feel that I should be helping them now. I should be providing for myself (and don't get me wrong, I'm trying). I seem to always be falling short, or I'm always missing something.

What is missing?

I don't know, no one know except for Heavenly Father.

I know I'm being tested and this is to help me learn something. I thought I knew what, but now I'm not so sure. What is the point of doing what I'm doing right now if I'm not happy?

I thought I was happy...now I'm just stressed.

I guess I have some things to sort out don't I?

(Sorry for the pessimistic rant, ya'll are peaches to hear me out :)

On another note...This man is always a great pick me up